This battle

Ya Allah, please help me. I’m struggling with life. I’m struggling with this battle inside my head and no one understands how hard it is for me, except you. You know how hard every passing moment is for me, and only you have the power to help, so please.. please help me

I really don't know what to feel. Do I need to cry? Or mad? ya mad, to myself. My problem was I cared too much eventho I keep telling myself not to put any trust on any people but I do. It hurts me hard. It's funny somehow. Padahal benda ni dah banyak kali kena dah banyak kali berjaga-jaga but it happened again and again. True, I really don't understand why they're telling me it is okay that I still have other choice. No, i'm not and I don't have any. Because I try to stay on one choice and I don't want to be like before.  I'm laughing at my face and fate. Is it a karma?

Girls, read this please

"If there’s a guy falling for you. Don’t rush to take him to come into. 

Because sometimes, he is easy to fall. He is also easy to leave.

Play it hard then.

If he wants to come in. Let him break your walls. Let him bleed. Don’t immediately respond to it.

Pull him, But don’t let him in.

 See how does he reacts to your idioty. Look at his patience with your brainless attitude during your period and see how does he handles your bullshit.

Make him mad. Make him take his real color out. Get to know him along this time.

 If he can bear with it. And he could stay with it. He is the one that worth to keep.

Let him dive.

Let him drown.

Let him come deeper and deeper.

Sooner, he couldn’t find the way out.

That is when he is all into you.

That is when he could hardly leave you, 

That is when he is all belong to you.

If you are being too easy.

He wouldn’t find it’s worth. He would also easy to leave for another.

Make him fights.

Make him bleeds."

As Taylor Swift said, boys only want love if it’s torture, don’t say I didn’t say I didn’t warn you. Hahaha

Stand By Me

When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we'll see
No I won't be afraid
Oh, I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand, stand by me

So darling, darling
Stand by me, oh stand by me
Oh stand, stand by me
Stand by me

If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
Or the mountain should crumble to the sea
I won't cry, I won't cry
No, I won't shed a tear
Just as long as you stand, stand by me

And darling, darling
Stand by me, oh stand by me
Oh stand now, stand by me
Stand by me

So darling, darling
Stand by me, oh stand by me
Oh stand now, stand by me, stand by me
Whenever you're in trouble won't you stand by me
Oh stand by me, won't you stand now, oh, stand
Stand by me

original singer: Ben E. King

Yes we are!

Everybody has a secret world inside of them. I mean everybody. All of the people in the whole world, I mean everybody - no matter how dull and boring they are on the outside. Inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds… Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands, maybe.

When someone is broken

"When someone is broken
You cannot fix them
Your lips are not the bandage that will seal the pieces into place
Your fingertips will not sew the brokenness
The fire in your heart cannot turn the past into ashes
When someone is broken
You cannot fix them"

BUKIT TINGGI, FRASER HILL, PAHANG

Hi. Assalamualikum wbt

Selamat tahun baru 2016 untuk kali kedua sebab ini entry kedua untuk tahun ni. Hehe

Sempena tahun baru 2016, aku yang memang kaki yang susah nak duduk diam kat rumah dengan rela hati ikut member member untuk keluar berjalan. Yela, final lagi sebulan lebih masa tu so dalam hati ngerja nak enjoy jaaaa. *maaf ummi balik kak Ten study* Hik

Mulanya ada sorang yang bersuara ajak p Gunung Ledang. But ya ampun jauh bangat rasanya Gunung tu tambah lagi masa tu musim hujan so memang tolak mentah-mentah dari join. Hahahaha

so second plan, dia ni tanya "Okay ratul, now ratul suggest nak g mana? kami ikut" Okayyyy cepat cepat betulkan tempat duduk and fokus dekat phone. Hahaha 

Disebabkan diorang pun takde idea nak g mana so dengan pantas aku taip, FRASER HILL! 

And they are agreed siap cakap terus "Okay esok pagi pukul 8.30 pagi gerak!" Ya Alloohhh kelam kabut balik rumah sebab masa tu sis tengah menyibukkan diri dekat rumah orang. Hehee

Balik and tengok baju semua dalam bakul, almost 80% baju dalam bakul belum basuh disebabkan mesin basuh rosak. Bukan aku malas gais nak basuh tangan tapi masa tu baru balik dari rumah mak so banyak baju yang tak sempat basuh bawak kesini maka bertambah la berbakul bakul. Okay kembali pada cerita. Thus, aku tengok la baju yang boleh pakai sesuai untuk p tempat gitu. *sesuai ke? 

So kat sini la kami bermula, bergerak dalam pukul 8.30 pagi memang depa semua dah terpacak depan pagar Ilmiah menanti ketibaan kami. *tipu je terpacak sebab diorang dalam kereta, ok*

and dalam 1.15 petang kami sampai betul betul di Bukit Fraser selepas bergelut dengan 90 kilometer jalan yang berpusing-pusing. Jalan* punya jalan. -..-

Bila sampai atas tu kami semua tertanya-tanya, mana bangunan bangunan cantik lain, takkan itu je? bila kami google balik, semua mengeluh. Actually bangunan and tempat yang aku suggested adalah dekat Bukit Tinggi tapi aku tersilap cakap Fraser Hill. Okayy Ratull! Tapi Fraser not bad gais. Cantik and sejukkkkk!

Then lepas makan and jalan sekejap, we decided to go to Bukit Tinggi pulak. Memang sakan la berjalan ja.Peduli hape kaki kami kan. Jauh tak jauh kami redah. Hahaha

So aku lupa pukul berapa pula kami gerak and sampai tapi yang pastinya kami hampir sesat ke bukit yang lain. Hahahaa

We have created something very meaningful to be tell to our children one day. Hehehehee

So nah ape yang kami dah ciptakan pada 2 January 2016 di Bukit Tinggi.

So this abang acap driver paling terror la sis boleh cakap. He is so cool people! Hahahaha

And this geng yang bersama harini, actually ada lagi 2 kereta member sis tapi tak terjumpa pula bila sampai sana taktau kemana diorang pusing ngeta depa. anyways thanks to them for a memorable moment that i had on that day. 

Umi tengok ni diorang baik jaga Kak Ten leklok jaa. Hehehehe

So dapat la sikit untuk konklusinya dimana bangunan bangunan dan tempat di Fraser di bina almost berpuluh puluh or maybe hundred years oleh orang english and kebanyakan bangunan pun lebih kepada gaya english. However, di Bukit Tinggi more on France. Ala ala perancis 50 an gitu. Serius I love the design so much. Fefeling di perkampungan and pekan perancis jap masa tu. *berangan banyak sis ni* Hehehe

Bye gais. enjoy your day in 2016 and wish the best for my final that is coming in 2 weeks. 

Assalamualaikum

BROGA HILL, TADOM HILL

Assalamualaikum wbt. Hai semua. Selamat tahun baru 2016 walaupun dah sepuloh hari 2016. Hehehe 

Disebabkan tiada kesempatan yang disebabkan ke-busy-an tiada masa nak mengupload and mengstory-mory maka harini dengan masa yang terluang sedikit ni aku nak ceghita sikit ape benda aku buat hujung tahun 2015. Cuti midsem haritu berjaya jugak aku dengan bangga dan berjayanya aku dapat p Bukit Tadom di Banting dan p panjat Bukit Broga di Semenyih. Hehehe paling best tu sebab p dengan si Buna and others(no name and pictures here, sorry) hikhik. Hehehehe so nah gambaq sebagai kenang kenangan.

TADOM HILL here we go....

Sorry to those yang tak ada dalam pictures diatas sebab sis terpaksa jaga hati banyak pihak. hehehe