This battle

Ya Allah, please help me. I’m struggling with life. I’m struggling with this battle inside my head and no one understands how hard it is for me, except you. You know how hard every passing moment is for me, and only you have the power to help, so please.. please help me

I really don't know what to feel. Do I need to cry? Or mad? ya mad, to myself. My problem was I cared too much eventho I keep telling myself not to put any trust on any people but I do. It hurts me hard. It's funny somehow. Padahal benda ni dah banyak kali kena dah banyak kali berjaga-jaga but it happened again and again. True, I really don't understand why they're telling me it is okay that I still have other choice. No, i'm not and I don't have any. Because I try to stay on one choice and I don't want to be like before.  I'm laughing at my face and fate. Is it a karma?

Girls, read this please

"If there’s a guy falling for you. Don’t rush to take him to come into. 

Because sometimes, he is easy to fall. He is also easy to leave.

Play it hard then.

If he wants to come in. Let him break your walls. Let him bleed. Don’t immediately respond to it.

Pull him, But don’t let him in.

 See how does he reacts to your idioty. Look at his patience with your brainless attitude during your period and see how does he handles your bullshit.

Make him mad. Make him take his real color out. Get to know him along this time.

 If he can bear with it. And he could stay with it. He is the one that worth to keep.

Let him dive.

Let him drown.

Let him come deeper and deeper.

Sooner, he couldn’t find the way out.

That is when he is all into you.

That is when he could hardly leave you, 

That is when he is all belong to you.

If you are being too easy.

He wouldn’t find it’s worth. He would also easy to leave for another.

Make him fights.

Make him bleeds."

As Taylor Swift said, boys only want love if it’s torture, don’t say I didn’t say I didn’t warn you. Hahaha